"As you know, I’m not good at goodbyes but I guess that’s what this is, a real one this time, cause as much as I thought I wanted us to be together, I guess what I want more is to be one of those people who lives every moment of his life without indecision and without regrets, someone who dares to disturb the universe without a thought to the consequences, and you’re not one of those people, at least not yet. Maybe you’ll prove me wrong about that one day, hope you do, but who knows? Maybe people can’t change. Maybe we’re doomed to repeat the same mistakes over and over again, no matter how hard we try. I always hope for a happy ending, how crazy is that?! Take care of yourself."
"The worst thing is loving someone when you know you shouldn’t anymore. It’s caring about someone, wondering how they are and what they’re up to when the truth is they’ve stopped wondering about you a long time ago. The worst thing is remembering every single detail of your relationship when he’s obviously long forgotten about you. The worst thing is missing him so much when he doesn’t even realize you’re gone, the worst thing is feeling the same as you ever did, knowing you shouldn’t, because he doesn’t anymore."
"I cried harder. I didn’t want to, but I couldn’t stop myself. I couldn’t stop myself, so I thought about all the bad things and I fed it and fed it until I was crying so hard I had to gasp for breath between sobs."
"I know my head isn’t screwed on straight. I want to leave, transfer, warp myself to another galaxy. I want to confess everything, hand over the guilt and mistake and anger to someone else. There is a beast in my gut, I can hear it scraping away at the inside of my ribs. Even if I dump the memory, it will stay with me, staining me. My closest is a good thing, a quiet place that helps me hold these thoughts inside my head where no one can hear them."
"No matter how careful you are, there’s going to be the sense you missed something, the collapsed feeling under your skin that you didn’t experience it all. There’s that fallen heart feeling that you rushed right through the moments where you should’ve been paying attention. Well, get used to that feeling. That’s how your whole life will feel some day. This is all practice, all practice."
"Sometimes I feel as if we are all trapped in a movie. We know our lines, where to walk, how to act, only there is no camera. Yet, we can’t break out of the movie. And it’s a bad one."
"Whenever she thought she could not feel more alone, the universe peeled back another layer of darkness."
"I want to tell them disappointment doesn’t last-but from what I’ve seen disappointment lasts like hell. I want to tell them words don’t matter; but from what I’ve seen words can get you killed."
"I slept the light, watery sleep of a sick person who has already slept off the day and then awakened to night, not knowing what to do."
"Back in school they never taught us what we needed to know, like how to deal with despair or someone breaking your heart."
"It’s late nights like this that are the worst. You stay up all night and can’t get yourself to fall asleep, so all you do is think. Think about everything. Everything that you have been through in your life. And as always, it’s mostly the bad things that stand out the most. You reminisce the good times you’ve had with people that no longer exist in your life. You think about how much happier you used to be and how everything was better before. It’s nights like this when you realize just how lonely you are, and how you wish that things would be alright for once."
"The worst thing is loving someone when you know you shouldn’t anymore. It’s caring about someone, wondering how they are and what they’re up to when the truth is they’ve stopped wondering about you a long time ago. The worst thing is remembering every single thing of your relationship when he’s obviously long forgotten about you. The worst thing is missing him so much when he doesn’t even realize you’re gone. The worst thing is feeling the same as you ever did, knowing you shouldn’t, because he doesn’t anymore."
"The good feelings are disappearing with a quickness, being replaced just as quickly with bad ones, horrible ones, and these dark thoughts start creeping around my head. Thoughts like how shitty everything is and how I hate my life."
"Ever woken up to an incredibly empty feeling? You’re not sad, but you’re not happy either. You don’t want to feel this way but you can’t find any way to help it. It’s like you don’t even know what you want."
