"I remember the day you left. Tying rocks to your ankles, you said, “I’m going to find a new world, under the ocean.” I guess you must be enjoying yourself, I haven’t seen you since."
"I want to live where soul meets body and let the sun wrap its arms around me. And bathe my skin in water cool and cleansing and feel what its like to be new. Cause in my head there’s a greyhound station where I send my thoughts to far off destinations, so they may have a chance of finding a place where they’re far more suited than here. ..And if the silence takes you then I hope it takes me too."
"Who gets to determine when the old ends and the new begins? It’s not on the calendar, it’s not a birthday, it’s not a new year. It’s an event, big or small, something that changes us. Ideally, that gives us hope, a new way of living and looking at the world, a way of letting go of old habits, old memories. What’s important is that we never stop believing we can have a new beginning, but it’s also important to remember that, amid all the crap, there are a few things worth holding on to."
"Waiting for the end to come, wishing I had strength to stand. This is not what I had planned, it’s out of my control. Flying at the speed of light, thoughts, we’re spinning in my head. So many things were left unsaid, it’s hard to let you go. Oh, I know what it takes to move on, I know how it feels to lie, all I wanna do is trade this life for something new. Holding on to what I haven’t got."
"I have never felt the urge to jump off a bridge, but there are times I have wanted to jump out of my life, out of my skin."
"Everything around me is evaporating. My whole life, my memories, my imagination and its contents, my personality - it’s all evaporating. I continuously feel that I was someone else, that I felt something else, that I thought something else. What I’m attending here is a show with another set. And the show I’m attending is myself."
"I am not sad, he would repeat to himself over and over, I am not sad. As if he might one day convince himself. Or fool himself. Or convince others — the only thing worse than being sad is for others to know that you are sad. I am not sad. I am not sad. Because his life had unlimited potential for happiness, insofar as it was an empty white room. He would fall asleep with his heart at the foot of his bed, like some domesticated animal that was no part of him at all. And each morning he would wake with it again in the cupboard of his rib cage, having become a little heavier, a little weaker, but still pumping. And by mid-afternoon he was again overcome with the desire to be somewhere else, someone else, someone else somewhere else. I am not sad."
"The worst thing about endings is knowing that just ahead is the daunting task of starting over."
"I never felt the urge to jump off a bridge, but there are times I have wanted to jump out of my life, out of my skin."
"Getting to know someone, entering that new world is an ultimate, irretrievable leap into the unknown. The prospect is terrifying. The stakes are high. The emotions are overwhelming."
"What’s this life anyway? What’s it to you and me? What’s it to anyone? Who are we supposed to be? Make me a storybook, write me away from here. I need a different now."
"Doctor, doctor won’t you please prescribe something? A day in the life of someone else? Cause I’m a hazard to myself. Don’t let me get me, I’m my own worst enemy. Don’t wanna be my friend no more, I wanna be somebody else."
"I’m tired of being sad. I’m tired of crying. I’m tired of feeling empty inside. I’m tired of feeling worthless. I’m tired of feeling stuck. I’m tired of feeling crazy. I’m tired of being alone. I’m tired of yelling. I’m tired of pretending. I’m tired of dreaming of a life I will never have. I’m tired of missing things. I’m tired of missing people. I’m tired of remembering. I’m tired of wishing I could start all over. I’m tired of not being able to just let go. I’m tired of faking it. I’m tired of being different. I’m tired of being angry. I’m tired of needing help. I’m tired of always wondering when God is finally going to let me be happy. Most of all, I’m just I’m tired of being tired."
